So, ti's been a while since I last posted anything, and decided I should get back into the swing of things. I posted my first ff100 to my ffnet earlier, so yay me! But, it's one am, and my moods always go odd in the middle of the night. At the moment, I feel very tired (granted, I've been up since eight this morning), and, I don't know if it's just the tiredness, but  I feel...I'm not too sure how to translate it to words. It's like, depressed, but not so strong a description. I think it's my dark and deranged side, that generally never sees the light of day, but still...I want to hurt. I feel empty and want something. Exactly what, I don't know. I want to maim myself, but a bored google search showed me I already do. I bite my fingers and nails, which is self-mutilation apparently. Anyway, it's late. Better hightail it up to my room so I don't get in trouble for being on the computer at "this time of night".

I hate the both of them! My mom especially at the moment. I was going to sell my DS to get money to go out today, but I left the charger at home. So, I went back home to get it, and mom asked me what I needed it for. So, I told her I needed it to get the full asking price for the DS, which I'd already pawned for $5, since I needed money to get home again. She got mad at me, and went on about how "I need to stop wasting my time" and "go volunteer somewhere if I can't find a job". I told her how I got the info from the hospital yesterday, and she said that I should volunteer at the newspaper, since it's "what I want to do". But, it ISN'T what I want to do. Sure, I got into my high school on how well I write, and journalism is an interesting field. But it's not what I want to do with my life. I just want to write. Be a fiction writer. There's more freedom in the field of writing than there is for journalism. Some number of days ago, I told my mom I wanted to be a writer. Basically, she scoffed and went "uh uh". My dad did the same thing some weeks ago, when I told him. He went on this tangent about how "nothing from nothing equals nothing", implying I wasn't doing anything. Yeah, like I'm gonna show my homophobe of a father my yaoi fanfiction. When pigs fly and hell freezes over, maybe.
Anyway, so I just got home for the night..day..whatever, after my mom went to the store to get my DS back.
*sigh* And I had been really looking forward to today, too.

Edit:
So, since I last posted today, I got kicked out the house. Me and my dad, we always disagree or argue over SOMETHING, and today he made good on a threat he's been saying for weeks now. So, I left and made my way to Anna's. My mom was worried apparently, not enough to want to talk to me however. Oh well..
Not much else to say...'Cept this just totally sucks.
-_-;;;;

Today was excellent. I went by the library to meet up with my friend Lauren (we call her "Death"), but she didn't show. But, it was alright, since I just hung around the library for a bit, then went by my friend Anna's house. We hung for a little while, then I headed home. I am hungry, so decided to give this recipe a try. I got it from Death: pan fried noodles. You take some ramen, and boil it, but don't add the seasoning. Then, in a pan, put a little olive oil and garlic, and let the garlic brown. Then, add the noodles and some crushed red peppers. It's gonna be so yummy. I'm gonna have some fish with it, perch to be precise. It's thawing at the moment. 

I was going to go out today, but my parents wouldn't let me since I had been out late the past couple of days. Oh well. Anyway,  hopefully I'll be able to hang out tomorrow and Fridray. Especially Friday.
Lesse...who's going to Oslo...My friends Lauren, Hannah, Brianna...and possibly a couple of others.
I started Coraline today, and I'm almost done with it. Good little book. Emphasis on little. It's friggin short, for how good it is.
Hack SIGN is a pretty awesome anime. It's been some years since I saw it, and I forgot just how cool it was. I love Tsukasa, Sora, Bear, Crim, Helba, and...hmm...I think that's it so far. I'm at the point where they just got back from talking to the Broken Man (dunno what ep it is).
What else...oh, my dad took my keys for whatever reason. I'm not entirely sure why, it sucks though.

So, I went to the library today and got three dvds. One is the complete .hack//SIGN, and the other two are vols 2 and 3 of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. Hehe, I'm going to be barracaded (sp?) in my room for the next couple of days.
Oh, tomorrow I may go out with a friend of mine to play a table top rpg. I forgot what it was called. And, Thursday, some friends and I (different peoples from the rpg) are going to the library to work on a Persona 3 fanfic. Naturally, it's gonna be yaoi. With shota, perhaps. And, on Friday, I'm going over to a sushi place with friends. It's awesome, the cheapest thing there is like $1. So, yeah, pretty busy week, it seems.
Ooops, slipped my mind, but I checked out MORE books from the library. They're in my book bag, and I am a lazy son-of-a-gun and don't really feel like getting them out to say what they are. One is by Robert Cormier, one is by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes, one is called Marked, and the other two I don't remember. Not to mention I have Coraline and Mossflower at home. Yay, busy brain!

So, I'm at Radio Shack, just kinda hanging out. The folks who work here are pretty cool, and Michael said that if I don't have a job by Youmacon, he'll pay for me to go! Such a sweet guy...^_^
I've watched almost all of Ouran High School Host Club, that's a pretty good anime. My favorite characters are Kyoya, Tamaki, Takashi, Hunny, the Twins, and Ranka. Ok, so I love the Hosts, sans Haruhi, and Ranka. There' that's simpler. Also, things don't seem to be looking good\, on any front. I may very likely get taken off my dad's insurance, and I have no means of negotiating anything, because my job prospects are getting immensely slim. Ugh, life totally blows at the moment. -_-
That's pretty much it today, then.

Haha! Funfun since my last post! Lesse...Friday I went to the library to take Repo back (no pun intended), and met these girls, one of whom is as into yaoi and shota as I am. And she has a gaia. We spent that day hanging out, then yesterday I went out with some other friends to see the Star Trek movie, which was most epic.
My dad made my mom dinner today, and it turned out pretty good, I was impressed. My dad doesn't cook much, and when he does, it ain't that great. But, he made some pretty good steak and potatoes.
And, Anna, exactly how are you making me go to Youmacon, pay for me to go? 

Yahoo! I finally saw Repo! The Genetic Opera! Fuck, this movie is epic! Well, I knew it would be, if the music was proof enough, but to see it on screen...Nothing effing compares. I so happy now. Plus, I'm listing to my favorite radio program (The Jump Button, Thursdays 6-9 pm EST), which is always good.
Recently, I read Artemis Fowl and the Time Paradox...the end of which made my head hurt. Good read, though.
Also, I watched Rock & Rule yesterday. Interesting movie, very trippy, really weird, but I like it! XD
Hmm...What else did I do since yesterday...Not too much...I'm supposed to be working on chap updates for my fics on ffnet...but I've been lazy and haven't really done too much. Giving my brain a rest for a bit, I suppose.
I'm also trying to do a KH AMV, but Movie Maker is just being such a bitch, stupid program won't save the movie file. Ugh. Plus, I need to start saving money if I'm going to Youmacon this year...but it appears I won't be going, I haven't gotten any callbacks from potential employers, which really sucks.

A friend of mine told me about LJ. Well, to be precise, she told me about fanfic 100, which I'm interested in doing. So, I figured, "eh, why not get a LJ, then?" 
So I did. And, here I am, Pixie in the flesh! Ok, maybe not flesh. Binary? In the binary? In the typed word? Whatever, I'm confusing myself. This is probably mostly due to the fact that it's 12:20 am for me at the moment, and I'm fucking tired. Stupid parents making me get up early in the mornings...*grumblegrumble*
Hmm...I can't think of much else to say...so I guess this is it for now. Till later, I 'spose.